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Hi ya'll!
OK I've been stupid busy lately which is why, unless you're following me on twitter or have my facebook info, you haven't heard much if anything from me. Between arguing with my parents about an apartment, job hunting, school, relationship ish, roommate shade & being a secretary in an organization, I just haven't had much of a minute to sit down and write. I haven't even written a poem in a few weeks. & not only is my creativity suffering, my hair is too. Like today when I went to wash my hair, the amount of hair that was taken out was depressing and I know it's because my schedule hasn't offered much time to do anything to my hair & since I don't detangle unless I'm planning on wearing my hair out but I've been wearing it out anyway and not protecting it, my BabyLove is suffering.
So as I write, I have a cholesterol treatment in. Hopefully it'll help. When I'm done with my washing session, def plan to wear twists for a few weeks because I just don't have time to do much else & I can't keep letting my hair suffer! But I also have to do a trim which'll happen next week & I'll put up pics.
Loves,
Ci

I bacccckkkk!

Ok so I've been busy with school. Like crazy busy studying, reading etc all in the quest of getting great grades. And the little bit of free time I have is for my friends, tumblr, boyfriend, twitter or something. It's like ugh! I so tired. :( But it's ok. I'm a big girl. I can handle it. I'm getting my priorities back in order though so I'm happy.
Yes my hair suffered for this crazy lifestyle I live but aye, it's growing back even though I have weird growth to begin with. It's it straight tho b/c I'm getting better and I'm doing a hair challenge so it'll get better. I still hate water though (I have to drink a lot now to be in this challenge :()
But yeah, this boyfriend character. Nope, not Skittles, July or anybody else. He's my Fattie (yes, I'm aware how crazy my nicknames for these guys are!)

gotta <3 it lol. 

Ci

Cici's back!

Life is crazy.

Let’s see. First off happy belated New Year to everybody. I’ve been MIA b/c the house computer hates me and I live in the boonies so no wifi so I’ve been sadly without my lovely Internet and my blogs. I’ll prolly be back in school by the time I post this so let’s get a quick catch up.

First up, my worst fear (of like 2 years lol) of my cousin and my ex fucking and dating was true. It’s crazy cause like if either one had bothered to tell me, I coulda let go hella faster rather than having to look at two people I love like fuck me over. But now, I really could give two fucks cause there was never a need to lie.

Second, apparently, my bestie and I are marked for like a damn threesome cause whenever I come home, dudes are trying smash us both. Neither of us like to share & I’m still a virgin so that’d be weird as hell lol. But nice tries my dudes!

Third, Skittles and I aren’t talking like that anymore. I’m a complex person that I guess most people can’t deal with and they need simpler and I’m not simple. Like I can try as hard as I want and change for a minute but then I’m gonna go back to doing me cause I can’t live a lie. I mean, lately, it’s been harder than ever to just let go but I have to. No way around it. I think it’s lying up late at night and thinking about convos we had or him coming to surprise me and make me feel better. I’ll miss it but aye, we both need to be happy.

Fourth, the Twitter group I was in? Not anymore! I wanted to leave for like 2 weeks before I stopped repping as hard as I was. I just wasn’t feeling being mean to random people anymore or being called a ho or w/e. I mean, I can be a bitch but only to those who deserve it. That’s just how I am.

I’ll be natural for a year on the 10^th! Yay!

As for this new year, I guess it’s time to make some changes. I mean, I can’t deal with basic bitches anymore cause I don’t have patience anymore. Fakeness, bullshit, drama, etc all of it can stay on TV and leave me the hell alone! I’m bout to be 20 fucking years old and I can’t keep dealing with shit like a 16 year old would. So here’s my toast to this year: let there be happiness, great times, awesome people, love, romance and just general ups moreso than downs this year. Let it be as awesome and great as it can be because one way or another, it’s gotta be.

Love and peace,

Ci

Ok

So I should be paying attention. But I kind of despise this class sooooo....
UPDATE TIME
First off, my life has been V E R Y hectic. I have a job (seasonal but I'm hoping it'll become long term) and classes have been kicking my ever loving ass and I'm trying this new thing called talking to somebody lol. This shit is crazy! I have had like zero time for basically anything not related to school including writing, doing my hair, or blogging.
I did an open mic and I think I did ok. A lil nervous but I have stage fright. More importantly: I'M EXPERIENCING THE WORST BREAKAGE EVER!!! My hair is just like "Fuck you! I'm breaking the hell off!" Sadly, I think it's my twists. So for now, I'm going to actually flat iron my hair for a while and see what happens b/c I hate detangling and having CLUMPS of hair come out of my head. It makes me cry for myself and poor defenseless BabyLove.
As for the whole relationship thing, Skittles (yes I know how INCREDIBLY homo that sounds) is still here. Seriously ya'll, I am like the WORST person to ever try and get to talk about her feelings and for some reason, I end up telling him. -_- But it's cool b/c he actually manages to calm me down and make me think bout shit.
Lately though, I've just been drained. Like, I don't know how I started thinking about it but everyday it seems like I've been dwelling on the thought of losing those closest to me and I don't really ever want to lose people anymore so I push them away. That's one part of my block and the other comes from a female I used to be cool with actually saying I'm grimy for being cool with a dude she used to talk to. Like I don't talk to you and you don't talk to him but I wouldn't be grimy enough to start fucking with someone you fucked with. I'm mean not grimy. *sigh* females. I let that get in my way to the point that I just almost shut down and walked away from everything. It's a mess but it's life. But I'm back and I know what I need to do to thrive from now on. I just hope everyone understands it!
Ci

B/c I'm avoiding Spanish....ole!

Soooo I don't wanna study.
I figure I'll just do a post up here since ya know, I haven't in a while. Hmm what to say? First off I have a JOB which, while seasonal now, is a) something to put on my resume and b) with hard work may turn into a part time thing which means:  APARTMENT next year :D & I can have my precious *Lord of the Rings voice* car w/ me :DDD
Anywoo.
Life is pretty good right now. Can't really complain b/c aye, it's good. Except for the whole Javezz thing. I coulda done w/o that. Oh & ol dude randomly texting me: I wanna cuddle. Negro, I blocked you on facebook and don't text you. Is that enough proof I don't wanna talk to you?!  *sigh* guess not.
The guy front.
Whelp, that's one of those interesting things b/c yes I do have someone I'm interested in. We'll see how it goes b/c w/ my track record, he'll read this and run away screaming.
Hair front.
It's GROWING & is so FLUFFY! :D I love it. It's not too happy w/ me b/c I haven't washed it this week and I went to a party (weed + alcohol near my hair= BAD) so BabyLove is rebelling and itching like hell! Hmmm....that's it for now I guess.
Ci

Halloween hair & more

So this is the result of a drunk night + forgetting how to wrap + my hair not liking to be wrapped + a comb + 5 mins to do my hair. It was a pretty Afro tho & a lot of people gave me great feedback so if I decide to do something with heat again, I'll probably blow dry my hair and leave it fluffy.

This is before I rewashed my hair. I love how my hair decided to revert and was like, "Bitch ain't shit you can do bout it!" *sigh* I love BabyLove though. Even if she is all gangsta when she wanna be.

Okay

So I haven't updated in a while. I guess this week will be a protective styling/ I'm just lazy week because I'm going to rock my phony pony this week (pics will be updated!) Also found a new blog today called leaveinthekinks.blogspot.com I love it! Yay! LOL. Got to go to bed.
Sweet dreams,
Alesia