Welcome to the world as I see it. This blog is all about life as I view it, poetry & random ish.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

My niece

My niece is my world. Seriously. I love this child like none other. Between her & my younger niece, I don't need kids. They are too awesome for words. It's amazing that one horrible day can change with an "I love you" in a chipmunk voice from a lil girl. :D
In other news, love life's in turmoil, what else is new? Smh. Gotta work on that.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

My Chemical Romance - Teenagers

I'm back

I haven't updated in forever! Guess I didn't have much to say. Been mostly looking for a job and tryna do me. I'll prolly do some poems tomorrow. Nothing else right now!

Monday, June 14, 2010

Facebook tells all

Don't be mad at me b/c Facebook tells all! If you wanna know, all you have to do is ask! In other news, my relationship status changed (finally for some people!) to in a relationship to someone most people don't know. He's my best guy friend above all else & I like it like that. Oh, and for the Formspring loser, go screw yourself!

Sunday, June 6, 2010


I'm 19 & I've sat here for a few hours thinking about somethings. I'm not willing to settle for just anything & that's probably why I'm single. I just don't have time for the games dudes wanna play. I"m not a ho, I  don't settle & I'm not gone lie to or for you. I'm just me.
I've been single almost six months (longest time since I was 15) and I don't see it changing anytime soon for just any guy. I'm cool w/ that though and I'm gonna enjoy it.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Summer motto

Lately it seems like everybody wants to rush into something aka a relationship but I don't have time. My little cousin apparently picked up on my mood and sent me some things from Myxer from Ed Hardy. They all had the same theme: love kills slowly.
While I may like someone and have the feeling returned, the ice cube that is my heart won't let me fall and the reason is clear: L O V E kills S L O W L Y. Quite frankly, I don't wanna die. But for everybody out there in relationships & loving it or looking for a relationship, have fun.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

No Doubt - Don't Speak

My Black isBeautiful

I don't claim to have all the answers about certain things but one thing I do know is that Black is beautiful. We have the most diversity among an ethnic group than anyone else & we also are one of our biggest critics. Gone are the days when we were told that we were brought up to have respect for ourselves & the Black community b/c as soon as one messed up, we all messed up. We as a people don't respect each other & our choices in life. Sure I don't like drug dealers but at the same time, I'm not gone judge somebody for doing what they perceive needs to be done for their family.
With natural hair reemerging as an actual choice for some, it's time that we stop fronting & telling our women that you only look good with a perm, weave or wig. When a man has to go through all the pain that a woman has to go through simply to conform to society's ideals of a woman, then we can talk. Until then I'm good doing me & being single. I don't want anybody to not know that my black is beautiful. 

La Vie Boheme From RENT

Wednesday, June 2, 2010


I love this song & video. I'm not a huge Wayne fan but this video is cute and funny plus I love Nicki (sue me!)
The real purpose behind this post is to announce that like most females, I actually started settling for less than I deserve. After today, I'm not settling. I don't have a list (shoutout to Chilli) but I'm also not gonna be just another girl for you to cal when you want something nor am I gonna be the one who the gets the calls of disrespect in the middle of the night. So as of right now, he can get the knockout only if he trying to do something with his life & actually wants to make me a priority.
That is all,

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


"Moment of honesty/someone's got to take the lead tonight/who's it gonna be?"
I haven't felt like this in a long time and tonight I'm gonna tell you how I feel
I was feeling you from day one. Tried to change for you and make everything gravy
But for some reason I could never understand, you couldn't see I was standing there for you
I can't keep waiting for the unthinkable to happen because while I
Wait for you, you can't take a second to think about or wait for me
See you want the ho who's gonna take a good person like you and crush you
Maybe that's what you want but that's not who I am
It's unthinkable that who I am isn't good enough for what you want
It's unthinkable that the amount of time I put in, ain't the amount of honesty I get back
It's unthinkable that you, aren't the person you make yourself seem
"I was wondering could I make you my baby if we do the unthinkable"
But I don't wanna do the unthinkable because I can't waste my time
Waiting on something that won't happen
So the unthinkable for me and you is to walk away and try to stay calm
Because for me, the unthinkable happened the day you
Stopped being you.