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Tuesday, February 23, 2010


So this past week has been filled with drama. Like really, I thought we were to the age where telling an adult about our problems didn't happen anymore but it's still going on. There are people who are mad b/c most of the Black girls on our hall are hanging out and have inside jokes so they try to make a big deal out of nothing. Yes, we shouldn't have responded the way we have but they pushed to far calling us ugly. So ugh! So tired of dealing with stupidness! At least I've been having good hair days.

Saturday, February 20, 2010


So I'm really feeling kinda sad right now. I sort of want a relationship but at the same time, I'm not ready for the drama and pain that can come from relationships. I am tired of guys tryna play with my emotions so right now, I'm making a vow that if I'm talking to or chilling with a guy, he can't be playing games. I don't have time.

Sunday, February 14, 2010


Ok, so Valentine's Day was like any other day and it was fun. But I decided to make a list about how I'm feeling right now about being single and a couple of things I've been noticing.
1. College freshman don't really have time to date
2. There are way too many dudes here that aren't the type for me (i.e. gay, bi, taken, a ho or way too cocky)
3. I like people who are more chill more than a boyfriend
4. If I chill with you, I can have feelings
5. I don't talk to one just guy because of the fact you get too comfortable
6. I kinda like being single
7. I grew up w/ a bunch of male cousins who I've learned from, I'm not the girl to mess with.
8. Trying me is why I'm single

Um....excuse me?!

So Happy Valentine's Day everyone! First off, I'm so happy for everyone in a good, healthy relationship. My day was pretty good but um, there were a couple of issues which led to be having to cancel. I'm still sorry though!
But my big issue comes the fact that this dude who I'm chill with seems to think it's ok for him to treat me like he wants to. Um, no! I like you and your fun to hang with but you will not use me for whatever it is that you want to do. There is no point in it and it makes you look a tad dumb. *sigh* smh. Not gonna worry bout it anymore. This will continue in my next post

Saturday, February 13, 2010

And it's Valentine's Day eve!

So once again, I'm back on the V-day thing and I'm remembering relationships past & the amount of mistakes made in them. It's like wow! I was so fucked up! It was like I was looking a relationship so bad, I would take them with anyone. I messed up with mad guys and in turn, made it harder for the next girl. For those cases, I'm truly sorry. But the other relationships where we either both screwed up or he did, I'm not worried bout it.
So, right now, I'm kinda chilling on the relationship thing because I'm not psychically or mentally ready for another round of "romance". When I get in a relationship, I want it to be based on mutual interest, attraction & respect. It just needs to be a mutual things because that's how it needs to be.
So to all the people out there with Valentines, be happy but don't just settle for one day. Be a Valentine all year and show that you care & you don't need one day to prove it.
To all the people like me with no Valentine, show those that matter that you appreciate them because they're the ones that will stick with you through it all.

Valentine's Day

Ok so I'm single for V-day & apparently, I'm supposed to HATE this lil holiday. I don't really. I could care less because quite frankly, I'd rather have my gifts spread out through the year. That's if I get anything. I'm in the mindset of, "I'm gonna do the best for me. If you wanna get me something, go ahead cause otherwise I'm good."
I mean, one of my guy friends didn't even wanna get his girl anything b/c he don't wanna be with her but he tryna get with me. It's amazing how the male mind works. I actually did care about the holiday once & I got a beautiful V-day from my baby (at the time). It was awesome & it makes me sorta miss him.
My big issue is, do we have to be in relationships to enjoy V-day? Makes a girl wonder

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Freshman retrospective

So this is my freshman year and I've noticed some weird things.
1. I go to a predominantly girl and a predominantly gay school
2. That being said, we don't have a football team
3. The straight guys here are kind of cocky b/c there are so many females
4. Chasing after guys, isn't cool
5. College is a lot of work
6. Cafe food does get old
7. I miss my family
8. I've grown up & I can't stand immature people

Monday, February 1, 2010

Question for my dudes

Ok I'm having a little problem understanding guys at the moment and I haven't really ever had this much trouble! Why is it that you say you like someone but the moment they show interest back in you, you run and hide? Or my favorite, telling someone you like them, chilling, telling them you still like them but when they try to be real with you, you kind of dip out. Truthfully, I'm starting to look at other races because they don't seem to be on as much drama as African Americans are. Black males get mad because black females don't date black males. Really?! Why keep stressing myself out over you? I don't really get it. I mean, maybe I should just chill & not worry because I'm so young but that's the point! I'm young & kind of want someone to chill with. Why is so hard for a young, highly intelligent, honest, ambitious female to find a guy? SMH. I hope guys understand that while you can have all the sex you want with a ho, the good females are heading towards other races because of it.