Sweetest thing

I've been on a Lauryn Hill kicc lately...her music is too durn deep for anything but long sessions of her with mad songs on repeat.
Anyway, all I can think about lately is my past. The past that used to cause such pain. When did it stop hurting? It stopped when I stopped worrying about everything in my past. I'm not that person anymore. Point blank, I'm a new person who actually enjoys life and doesn't worry about anything but doing me. Maybe that's what I was supposed to learn this semester: how to let go.

And it ends.....

Today is my last full day as a college freshman. It's been pretty interesting and I've done things I never thought I would or could do. As I continue to grow, I think that college is the best thing that's ever happened for me. Thanks to everyone who helped me through this year and for the prayers that have gotten me through it all.
Ci

D R A M A

Um def don't have time for drama! I don't like nor need it but when I say things are gonna happen and they happen, I don't take joy in it. Instead, I grow and leave it be.
In other news, I'm kinda happy right now. I know how I feel bout the newly niccnamed Huey (aka KP). I like the feelings I have but who knows? Def gonna have to do a recap of my weekend tho!

Freshman year: the hair

Goodbye KP

So for the past few months, I've been talking to this dude that had the niccname KP. I tried to do everything to make sure that I didn't annoy him and that he knew that I really liked him. I even would helped him if he was sicc and I hate being around sicc people. But I keep feeling like I care about him and he.....he could give two fuqs about me. So in accordance w/ the no dead weight policy, it's time to say goodbye KP. Interesting times but I can't keep doing this.
Ci

Group think

So, Erykah Badu's "Window Seat" has me thinking: why are we a part of the group think experience? Even when we say we're not, we are. Case in point, if one person has a problem with another person in the group, the group will turn on the other person. It's sad but that's how people are. I encourage you to think for yourself and enjoy YOUR life from YOUR perspective not from anybody elses'. Life is too short to just be doing what everyone else is doing simply b/c u lacc the baccbone to speak up for yourself. Also, if you're in college, don't do high school shit. It's not cute. It's childish and makes u look like ur a hot ghetto mess. Sorry just stating facts. But my main point is this: make up your mind about a person and don't let others color your opinion. Also, if you have an issue, come straight to the person.
Ci

EXCUSE YOU! AKA WHY I'M SINGLE

Ok, so Valentine's Day was like any other day and it was fun. But I decided to make a list about how I'm feeling right now about being single and a couple of things I've been noticing.
1. College freshman don't really have time to date
2. There are way too many dudes here that aren't the type for me (i.e. gay, bi, taken, a ho or way too cocky)
3. I like people who are more chill more than a boyfriend
4. If I chill with you, I can have feelings
5. I don't talk to one just guy because of the fact you get too comfortable
6. I kinda like being single
7. I grew up w/ a bunch of male cousins who I've learned from, I'm not the girl to mess with.
8. Trying me is why I'm single

Freshman retrospective

So this is my freshman year and I've noticed some weird things.
1. I go to a predominantly girl and a predominantly gay school
2. That being said, we don't have a football team
3. The straight guys here are kind of cocky b/c there are so many females
4. Chasing after guys, isn't cool
5. College is a lot of work
6. Cafe food does get old
7. I miss my family
8. I've grown up & I can't stand immature people