Happy Easter!

So I'm on a break from school work (ugh!) so I decided to just do a quicc update. First off, happy Easter to everybody! It's a strange idea to celebrate the death of someone but the real idea behind it is awesome!
In other news.....I'm in a world of mess! Personal life is in such disarray. I can't wait until this mess is over! School is a hot ghetto mess too. This damn stats class is killer. Trying to find a job is mess and just life in general is crazy. This world is a mess. Why are people od'n because people are being creative and expressing their inner selves? Ugh!
I'm randomly ranting b/c I can't really say what I wanna say: I think I'm falling in love and it's scary. He's managed to get pass my walls and show me that people aren't always so bad. I'm so damn scared but I'm working on me. I can't wait til this is clear.

Um....excuse me?!

So Happy Valentine's Day everyone! First off, I'm so happy for everyone in a good, healthy relationship. My day was pretty good but um, there were a couple of issues which led to be having to cancel. I'm still sorry though!
But my big issue comes the fact that this dude who I'm chill with seems to think it's ok for him to treat me like he wants to. Um, no! I like you and your fun to hang with but you will not use me for whatever it is that you want to do. There is no point in it and it makes you look a tad dumb. *sigh* smh. Not gonna worry bout it anymore. This will continue in my next post

And it's Valentine's Day eve!

So once again, I'm back on the V-day thing and I'm remembering relationships past & the amount of mistakes made in them. It's like wow! I was so fucked up! It was like I was looking a relationship so bad, I would take them with anyone. I messed up with mad guys and in turn, made it harder for the next girl. For those cases, I'm truly sorry. But the other relationships where we either both screwed up or he did, I'm not worried bout it.
So, right now, I'm kinda chilling on the relationship thing because I'm not psychically or mentally ready for another round of "romance". When I get in a relationship, I want it to be based on mutual interest, attraction & respect. It just needs to be a mutual things because that's how it needs to be.
So to all the people out there with Valentines, be happy but don't just settle for one day. Be a Valentine all year and show that you care & you don't need one day to prove it.
To all the people like me with no Valentine, show those that matter that you appreciate them because they're the ones that will stick with you through it all.
So HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABES!

Valentine's Day

Ok so I'm single for V-day & apparently, I'm supposed to HATE this lil holiday. I don't really. I could care less because quite frankly, I'd rather have my gifts spread out through the year. That's if I get anything. I'm in the mindset of, "I'm gonna do the best for me. If you wanna get me something, go ahead cause otherwise I'm good."
I mean, one of my guy friends didn't even wanna get his girl anything b/c he don't wanna be with her but he tryna get with me. It's amazing how the male mind works. I actually did care about the holiday once & I got a beautiful V-day from my baby (at the time). It was awesome & it makes me sorta miss him.
My big issue is, do we have to be in relationships to enjoy V-day? Makes a girl wonder