I just don't get it aka goodbye Huey

How can you say all these wonderful things and yet, treat me like I'm an offbrand bitch? I was there were ya niggas weren't and when you were going through, I let you vent. We had an equal friendship until the day that I said what u were thinking: why not be together? Then you got upset and distanced yourself. It's ok but it still hurts and I wish you hadn't. But to move on, I gotta let you go and this is how I do it.
Alesia

Welcome back!/DRAMA

So classes started today (my weekend was wayyyy too short but I enjoyed every minute of it!). I have NO cute guys (even though there are more on campus) in my classes so far which works b/c I'll be less shy and more focused. Plus a boo right now is kinda a want not a need.
But the drama continues b/c the same bs that happened before is continuing but not with me. So happy bout that b/c it shows that I wasn't the one in the wrong (go me!) But I don't stress it b/c what's the point of worrying about drama?
Oh, I don't have a boo/bae/baby/babe/anything b/c I realized Huey treats me like I'm always gonna be around which I'm not and Sweetz's occupation is too complex for me right now so single life is where it's at.
Alesia

Where in the world is Lesi?

I've been round the world and back again. *sigh* no really I just took a break from blogging and started back writing poetry. But in other news, my focus is back where it needs to be: on my future w/ or w/o Huey. He's the prototype and he'd be the one but he doesn't feel me like that so it's ok. Being single is just as good as being in a relationship because I don't have the hassle nor am I tied down in a bad relationship.
Alesia

Dear Huey

Dear Huey,
You're a good guy and all but I don't think you're right for me. I mean, you can text at 3 in the morning after I CLEARLY said good night but during the day you can't text? Did I mention I had to get up at 7 that day? Did I complain, no b/c like the good person I am, I tried to let it go. But, Huey, we needa stop fooling ourselves. Friends or friends with benefits may not work. Let's be associates.
Alesia'

Hate that I love you

How is it even possible that I'm considering going back to my ex? maybe it's because I still do & always love him. The kind of love we have is not good nor is it particularly functional. *sigh* But he makes me remember what it is to love and how it felt to just be myself with a guy w/ no walls, no boundaries. We've been talking lately and  it seems like we could make it work. It would be awesome to move past the hurt and pain and everything else but can we? And if we do, where will that leave Huey and I?
Huey is the kinda dude I could grow to love but he has so many damn walls that he's a damn male me. That's too much for one person! *sigh*

I miss u

Sooooo I'm missing him right now. I have never and I can say this honestly missed a guy like this. SMH. Gotta break his hold on me.