Stuck in the middle....without you

I'm stuck in hell.
Really there's nothing to do here back in the 252 and I'm here til Jan 8th. SOOOO ready to leave. It's like everybody's gay, married, locked up or having kids. It's so freaking annoying. Let's add to the fact that the dude I like, wants "time". What does that mean?! I know I'm not perfect but if you can't handle me at my worst, why should you talk to me at my best? It's so freaking stupid to not talk to me about things that I've done that annoy you and you just chose to freeze me out.
Yes I'm mad.
At least my hair's growing but b/c I'm in the 252, everybody has decided it's nappy and I need to do something about it. Fuck that. I'm just tired of it all really. -_-
Ci

RENT

Things that annoy me

1. Don't ask me to do something for you if you're just gonna talk about it. That's a good way to get ya face knocked in.
2. Don't agree with me that I'm getting pudgy.
3. When pointing out my allergic reactions to chocolate, don't do it.
4. Don't cry more than I do.
5. If I don't text you in three hours, don't text me talking bout  what up love. It irks me.
6. If you can't handle me when I'm in a mean mode, walk away.
more later

Sometimes you just gotta vent

I don't do this often enough I guess which is probably why I have so many damn issues. Quite honestly, if I were to talk about my emotions, it'd freak people out b/c most forget I even have the damn things. But here we go (disclaimer: if you really don't wanna know, don't read the rest of this)
Respecting me will get you further. Yes I call you out ya name but I do it playfully and I stop when you ask me to. Talking shit will get ya ass kicked and make me mess up my nails which I don't wanna do. Respecting me also means letting me do me and enjoy my life rather than pass judgments when you don't know what's really going on. This also means that if we were ever really cool, you could come to me bout shit and let it lie. Rather than do that, you wanna talk shit and say you're too grown to talk shit. It's ok. Not worried about it anymore. Honestly, half the shit you people do bothers me and that's why I don't associate with you anymore.
Don't try to play me because I'm not stupid. I know how the game works and I can play it better than you.
Happiness in my life doesn't come around often enough that I'll let people fuck it up. Remember that.
If I call you a friend & treat you like one, act like one and don't get mad when I tell you how I feel. There's a reason I rarely tell people how I feel and it's because they don't know how to take it. Honestly, I just wish people could see themselves through my eyes. It'd save me a lot of trouble.
And I know I'm not perfect but I try to be a good person when most people aren't so if I'm making the effort, why can't ya'll?

Random but true

Sometimes you just need to vent

Explaination

I was kind of upset earlier. Both my grandmothers are in the hospital and I just need a break. Huey and I aren't cool and Sweetz and I are rocky. *sigh* The love life of Lesi. To make matters worse, I have to see the ho I think Huey messed with while we were talking. I just need a break.
Things are kind of looking up though. I mean, I'm talking to someone new named Bubbles who seems cool. But I have a Spanish test to study for so maybe I'll video update this later!
Alesia

don't mean to be rude but

FUCK THE WORLD WITH A LONG DICK