He is

I don't know how to say it.
He's something I never expected to have. I mean, I've done WAY bad things but he somehow makes me feel like I deserve to be happy again. I haven't felt that way in a long ass time.
I like the way he kisses me and holds me.
It's weird b/c any other guy woulda been turned off by the fact I still have my v-card but he........he's something different. No pressure just hugs that are awesome and kisses that make me smile. I love how he can do something that makes me smile. Like kiss me when I'm sad or hold me when I've had an off day. Texts from him always make me smile.
I'm scared.
It's my usual fear of someone I like walking away but it's also the fact that he's a great guy. I don't wanna hurt him or have him decide he can't deal with the complicatedness that is me. I'm not perfect but can he stand it. I'm hoping he can b/c if he does, I may be with him for a while.
So there's this guy, who I totally like who likes me back. I hope it works because if it does....that'd be perfect.
CiCi