I bacccckkkk!

Ok so I've been busy with school. Like crazy busy studying, reading etc all in the quest of getting great grades. And the little bit of free time I have is for my friends, tumblr, boyfriend, twitter or something. It's like ugh! I so tired. :( But it's ok. I'm a big girl. I can handle it. I'm getting my priorities back in order though so I'm happy.
Yes my hair suffered for this crazy lifestyle I live but aye, it's growing back even though I have weird growth to begin with. It's it straight tho b/c I'm getting better and I'm doing a hair challenge so it'll get better. I still hate water though (I have to drink a lot now to be in this challenge :()
But yeah, this boyfriend character. Nope, not Skittles, July or anybody else. He's my Fattie (yes, I'm aware how crazy my nicknames for these guys are!)

gotta <3 it lol. 

Ci

I think I love him

Not! Over love, lust, like, etc. I don't have time to deal with the stupidness of guys in other words:
SHE A BITCH YEAH SHAWTY SUPER THICK!

Hate that I love you

How is it even possible that I'm considering going back to my ex? maybe it's because I still do & always love him. The kind of love we have is not good nor is it particularly functional. *sigh* But he makes me remember what it is to love and how it felt to just be myself with a guy w/ no walls, no boundaries. We've been talking lately and  it seems like we could make it work. It would be awesome to move past the hurt and pain and everything else but can we? And if we do, where will that leave Huey and I?
Huey is the kinda dude I could grow to love but he has so many damn walls that he's a damn male me. That's too much for one person! *sigh*

My niece

My niece is my world. Seriously. I love this child like none other. Between her & my younger niece, I don't need kids. They are too awesome for words. It's amazing that one horrible day can change with an "I love you" in a chipmunk voice from a lil girl. :D
In other news, love life's in turmoil, what else is new? Smh. Gotta work on that.

Summer motto

Lately it seems like everybody wants to rush into something aka a relationship but I don't have time. My little cousin apparently picked up on my mood and sent me some things from Myxer from Ed Hardy. They all had the same theme: love kills slowly.
While I may like someone and have the feeling returned, the ice cube that is my heart won't let me fall and the reason is clear: L O V E kills S L O W L Y. Quite frankly, I don't wanna die. But for everybody out there in relationships & loving it or looking for a relationship, have fun.
Ci

Reflection

So I'm waiting for my cousin to come get me and I've been thinking about my ex. Yes my ex that broke my heart, trust and family. I loved that dude for years and he just up and threw it away. I wasn't perfect b/c I was nagging bitch a lot of the time but for him to at the very least emotionally cheat with my thirteen year old cousin is bullshit. And now, he has one kid on the way...bitch got pregnant while me and him was "talking". He swears he didn't fuck her but then again, he lies.
The sad part of the story is, I miss the way he and I used to be. He was my best friend and at one time, the love of my life. I think he's the reason I try to give people so many chances: I'm screwed up I think. Maybe one day, I'll actually learn my lesson and let it go.