Sick of trying

Short one: I'm sick of trying w/ the whole "romance thing" it's annoying and stupid. Done!

RENT

Things that annoy me

1. Don't ask me to do something for you if you're just gonna talk about it. That's a good way to get ya face knocked in.
2. Don't agree with me that I'm getting pudgy.
3. When pointing out my allergic reactions to chocolate, don't do it.
4. Don't cry more than I do.
5. If I don't text you in three hours, don't text me talking bout  what up love. It irks me.
6. If you can't handle me when I'm in a mean mode, walk away.
more later

Ok

So I should be paying attention. But I kind of despise this class sooooo....
UPDATE TIME
First off, my life has been V E R Y hectic. I have a job (seasonal but I'm hoping it'll become long term) and classes have been kicking my ever loving ass and I'm trying this new thing called talking to somebody lol. This shit is crazy! I have had like zero time for basically anything not related to school including writing, doing my hair, or blogging.
I did an open mic and I think I did ok. A lil nervous but I have stage fright. More importantly: I'M EXPERIENCING THE WORST BREAKAGE EVER!!! My hair is just like "Fuck you! I'm breaking the hell off!" Sadly, I think it's my twists. So for now, I'm going to actually flat iron my hair for a while and see what happens b/c I hate detangling and having CLUMPS of hair come out of my head. It makes me cry for myself and poor defenseless BabyLove.
As for the whole relationship thing, Skittles (yes I know how INCREDIBLY homo that sounds) is still here. Seriously ya'll, I am like the WORST person to ever try and get to talk about her feelings and for some reason, I end up telling him. -_- But it's cool b/c he actually manages to calm me down and make me think bout shit.
Lately though, I've just been drained. Like, I don't know how I started thinking about it but everyday it seems like I've been dwelling on the thought of losing those closest to me and I don't really ever want to lose people anymore so I push them away. That's one part of my block and the other comes from a female I used to be cool with actually saying I'm grimy for being cool with a dude she used to talk to. Like I don't talk to you and you don't talk to him but I wouldn't be grimy enough to start fucking with someone you fucked with. I'm mean not grimy. *sigh* females. I let that get in my way to the point that I just almost shut down and walked away from everything. It's a mess but it's life. But I'm back and I know what I need to do to thrive from now on. I just hope everyone understands it!
Ci

I'm bacckkk!

Sorry I was gone for so long!
School has been hella hectic between classes, homework, clubs, friends, etc. But I'm back again. Ya'll can ignore the video that I uploaded b/c that was for a class. *whew* Spanish and my King Arthur class are over for now! *happy dance* Sooo ready for these lovely exams so I can chill....in between this job thing which I hope turns into part time so I can get my apartment. I offically hate campus living. :(
Anywho
I'll be back later with a longer post about everything that's been going on lately because A) I need to go to class and B) the people who need a computer are looking like they're gonna attack me!
Peace

Random

 The two sides of me